I decided to stop contacting Julius who I had met online for three years. Actually it had been a thought in my mind for a long time but I didn’t have enough courage to act on it. Because the idea of having a love fantasy was simply too good. He was exotic, tall, cute and smart. We shared a lot of things in common and it went on bonding something deeply at my heart, I started to having feelings for him very soon even this relationship has been surreal. We never called or never did instant messages with each other, I suggested once but he rejected. All we did was writing excessive long emails, sharing our thoughts, opinions, fears and likes about almost everything. I confessed to him how I felt after our first and only offline meeting but he didn’t respond. The worst thing was I “allowed” his disappearing- reappearing act throughout these three years. Sometimes it was a few days, a few weeks, even a month. I was very upset when he did this because I felt unmost disrespected, but I was too afraid to “lose” him. I couldn’t let go of the feeling of being understood, connected and vulnerable to someone.
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Have you ever sat alone and thought about why you are good at socializing and meeting new people, why you are good at writing and painting, why you are good at solving problems at work and earning trust from your clients, why you are good at learning languages and passing different exams, why you are good at mastering new skill sets and exploring interesting things…
Yet, you are always bad at love, you suck at loving someone.
Well, good news is, you are not alone. Because I am here with you, right here.
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Few weeks ago a guy who I met for three months said goodbye to me in the middle of an argument. I was ”silly” enough to develop a feeling towards him in such a short time and we didn’t even meet. I heard many people saying, just let him go and go on with your life. I couldn’t, how could I? My head was full of confusion, disappointment and anger. I texted him again and again and again for an answer, yeah, that’s me. But I deserved an answer from him, as everyone deserves a reason if they were left out like this.
Eventually he replied me and said something that I would never forget in my entire life:
I don’t know why you have made this so difficult.
Continue reading “Get over a person who you like”
Every time when I feel a relationship is going to break apart, when someone I like is fading away from my life, it feels like I am trapped in a box, cannot breathe, cannot run away and cannot see anything.
Continue reading “One thing I learned from people that I liked”
This is one of the biggest cliché topics in relationship. Yet for such a long time, we never have an definite answer for it. I have been there for a few times, wished I could find a pill to take then I can erase the memory with this person. Rather to think of something unrealistic, I realized there are some paths that I can take to go over someone who doesn’t like me back. Here are ten paths I found from the last experiences and hope it will put some insights to a girl or a guy who is going through a crush situation.
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Few weeks ago, I ‘suddenly’ confessed to my crush, who I have feeling for almost two years. It was not planned, even though I did think about multiple times that I needed to confess to him, I mean, how bad it can be? He is only my co-worker, someone I see almost every day. But I needed to get him out of my system, this will not be the first time I confess to a guy, but I still chickened out. I looked for ‘supports’ from all sources I could find, the answers I received were mostly:
“no, girls should never confess to a guy, if he likes you, he will come to you.”
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